Thursday, November 26, 2009
I wanna do the things I couldnt do or didnt get a chance to do in the past :'(
I wanna go back to those times;
doing the things I used to love to do
being in the places I loved to be
feeling the positive up n high emotions I used to enjoy n have
with the people who are always there for me
or at least who used to be there for me
I miss those days when I had almost everything n felt so secure and complete.
I miss the past, am hurting in the present, and am doubting the future
why oh why cant I get out of this emo funk?
been trying to get out of it, almost did last week n then this week I come crashing down again worse than before.
3 times in a row all within a month. within 2-3weeks actually. when i thought life coudnt get any worse, it had to prove to me that im so fcking wrong by showing me how bad it can still get.
i guess its karma. wad goes around comes back around smacking u hard in the face in the process. which goes to show that the phrase "treasure what u have, coz u cant get it back when its gone" is so goddamn true. here's laughing at me. hohoho...
laughing's such a chore now. smiling hurts. heart aches.
I never realise how much i miss those years as well:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avJrxDakJS4
to add to my already depressed state, this vid made me laugh n tear up at the same time.
the only up is that i scored 9.75/10 for my drama monologue of which i was a psycho pretending that im a geisha from the memoirs of a geisha script. i topped the class but its gonna be tough to keep it up and i HATE people competing against me :S
and EnD 20% project result tmr. immapeemypants. super scared coz i din give it my all and as usual, i always end up in regret. notice how i ALWAYS ALWAYS end up in some sort of regret one way or another in wdv i do? maybe im fated to be ALWAYS living in regrets then end up wallowing in self-pity.
i tink i need anti-depression pills stat! :( :'( :( :'(
5:21 PM
INTRO
L is for the way u LOOK at me
O is for the ONLY one I see
V is VERY VERY extraordinary
E is EVEN more than anyone that you can adore
Like a perfect scene
From a movie screen
We're a dream come true
Suited perfectly
For eternity
Me and you
Everyday, I need you even more
And the night time too
There's no way I could ever let you go
Even if I wanted to
ME!
M-S-M
I(II)-N-A-T-M
Shopaholic
Piercings<3
Tattoos<3
*Might* fall into the materialist category
LOVES
Leather, Rosegold, Gold, Silver<3<3<3
Accessories Addict<3
Spiky, studded, sparkly goods
Bagaholic
Watch Collector
I live to eat<3
THE WANTS
To secure a stable job in the near future
<3
Y
